If you ever feel disconnected from the world; you are totally happy being by yourself in the zen of your own thoughts, and you think that makes you kind of strange. You are not. I can assure you. If it doesn’t apply let it fly, but it may be introversion, or what I like to call a reflective personality.
I have come to learn that humans by far and large — myself included — are a tricky bunch. Some wear their hearts on their sleeves. Others, make inner worlds where they are the sole person in them, and they imagine what things will be like for the sheer enjoyment of the solitude.
I know of this kind of personality very well. I can say that because I am introverted, yet over time I have become more expressive. It depends on the environment, and the people I am around.
Even when many things are going on at one time I can manage to keep a unusually straight face, deadpan even. Within however, I am thinking and feeling at a fast and deep speed. Some people show the speed of their thoughts in a lively extroverted fashion; for others — it is a different story. That is totally okay.
I feel that misunderstanding introversion is very common. Much is said on how to be more outgoing, and little is said on how to deal with what is within-going. That is sad because there is such wisdom buried in the quiet introverted hearts of God’s reflective children. It’s not a defect to be an introvert; rather, one has to know how to inflect, and express well in the absence of extroverted confidence in order to make up for some of the perceived weaknesses of the trait — in order to make it a strength. Reflective people have things to say. They say what has the most importance at the moment to them often. A man of few words is by no means always a man of few THOUGHTS.
When the outside world is understood now and days not so much through the mouths of people speaking, but in front of screens, digital media, and ebooks (or paper ones if that fits your fancy) it only adds to the inner complexity of the core of the heart, and the self-comprehension of it. With all the informational saturation we pay a price — for often, we don’t look inside enough. Reflective people? For many I think it is a different story, and I don’t think I would be wrong in thinking that introverts have this using a heartoscope thing down to a science.
For from the inner parts of our being actions flow out and reshape the world around us. Even if we are doing “nothing” at the moment we are doing something. We are existing, breathing, and being. There is never a moment where we are not in some sort of motion in relation to something else. It is good to see where the heart stands. A good heart doesn’t always have to RUN… a good heart also knows when to REST.
Look at Jesus. There is no doubt in my mind that he reflected, and pondered over things deeply. He was awesomely bold when he had a message to give from his Father, and yet… he often retreated from society to be alone with his Father, the Spirit, and the angels. He had no problem with being bold, and being reflective. He NEVER castigated anyone who had a heart of focus.
His words are immortal, deep, and perfect. Honed, and stunningly accurate –they make me wonder how much contemplation he put into them. With Him knowing what happens before it happens — I’m sure he played out within his heart what he would say, and thought over the different reactions he would get. I think it is incredibly neat to think of God in this way. Instead of Jesus having a bold “get ’em for God” kind of personality only… rather, what if he was a reflective sort of person who was still, and still is AMAZINGLY skilled in his communication, articulation, inner fluency and social fluency?
Granted He is God, but he was also fully man. Often that is forgotten. I hope it is remembered more because in it there is hope for us. Check out this action for example.
Phillipians 2:3-11, WEB
Doing nothing through rivalry or through conceit, but in humility, each counting others better than himself; each of you not just looking to his own things, but each of you also to the things of others. Have this in your mind, which was also in Christ Jesus, who, existing in the form of God, didn’t consider equality with God a thing to be grasped, but emptied himself, taking the form of a servant, being made in the likeness of men. And being found in human form, he humbled himself, becoming obedient to the point of death, yes, the death of the cross. Therefore God also highly exalted him, and gave to him the name which is above every name, that at the name of Jesus every knee should bow, of those in heaven, those on earth, and those under the earth, and that every tongue should confess that Jesus Christ is Lord, to the glory of God the Father.
Though being God, he became as we ARE, yet the only difference is he did not SIN. He faced all the same temptations we do, yet he overcame them. How can someone who willingly denies himself of his trump card do this? Simple, he reflected and spent devotional time in the his Father’s inner Eden in his own heart. Following in his example there is great hope for anyone who hears his call within, and answers to it, and reflects on it.
Never feel bad for being cool with being alone, contemplative, and or “introverted”. In that place much can be gleaned, and much can be done. There is no shame — for you’re in good company with the Radiance of the Father’s heart — Jesus Christ.