Today was a morning like many others. Woke up, checked the phone, etc. In the larger scheme of things however I have been thinking about something that has been changing my perspective on my daily experience of reality.
For a long while, I have felt a deep burn inside. A very slow, subtle burn that always has a way of preoccupying my feelings and priorities. It’s the burn of feeling like I am not doing enough. Enough for myself, enough for God, and enough for the people that count on me.
Anyone who truly cares about making the world a better place I can imagine would feel this way at least time to time. For me though I admit that no other issue has given me more internal friction than this one.
On the other side of the coin — there is no other issue in my heart and head at the moment that the inner light of the Holy Spirit been tackling more. The counter punch to the inner dilemma in the divine theater of the soul is “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.”
If you start your day with setting the eyes of your heart to something like — thy will be done in me, according to the purpose you see, in rest and in peace shall I follow — you are going to be standing on better ground than many do.
It’s okay to start small. How would anything that is of good size and strength become that way if it didn’t begin in some primordial form? You can find this theme in scripture in Zachariah 4:10, which says, “Do not despise these small beginnings, for the Lord rejoices to see the work begin.”
Since really bearing down on starting the day with resting in his promises… I have been finding truer peace, for it is better to draw from the strength of the cookie jar of the grace of Christ than in the limited crude stock that I have innately available to myself. God delights in small things done in sincerity more than the mind of a mortal can imagine.
Don’t be afraid to start small in whatever you do. The small tender seeds of hope, faith, and love.